Flame-Dried Figs

Catherine Yiğit – Irish writer living in Turkey

An orange and brown butterfly on a green bay laurel tree

Focus

Deadlines work for me, excellently, impeccably.

But what about when there is no deadline? When there is no outside push to do the work.

A lot of time-wasting is what happens. I can’t call it procrastination because that’s done when there is a goal that is being avoided.

This involves a complete blank on all the things I intended to do, on all the projects I want to complete. They leave my head entirely.

It happens after the work deadlines are met, in the time that is my own. When I can do anything.

I remember eventually, generally five minutes before I must go and do other things.

It leaves me feeling empty, draining out into a swirl of missed opportunity.

Still, there’s always tomorrow…

Butterfly on a bay laurel

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